Almost Escape
By, Amber Campbell

When everything is always going down
You seemed to always pick me up
When I was limping from their worded wounds
You were whom I leaned on

My support is gone
I've no where to go
He's so far
I can't even reach him

I'm going to slip
I'm going to drown

When everything was fine
You always had a harsh speech
Made me feel no good
I'm a waste of time

And you'll leave me

He was all I had
When the nights were never ending
I had to deal with myself
The one I never wanted

It's kind of a shame
I let us all down
It's all my fault
You are so cruel

My hand up
Is shoving me down
And I can kiss the dirt
It's where I belong

I'm going to be unclean
I'm going to suffer

And you'll never see where I fade

He was where I went
To try and trust myself
I'll break apart my insides
Sell them off piece by piece

It's such a piercing pain
To not be able to be free
To dance in the rain
My troubles are slowing me

I feel so useless when he's away
I feel even worse when he's around
I don't know what to do
I'm clamped on the inside

Can I let myself loose?
Allow me to fly

I just wanted someone to uplift me
Why could you never see?
I needed you to help me
And give me those guiding steps

You never did want to push
Me in the right direction
I had to be wrong
so you could be right

You're on top now
And I'm looking
Straight up to you
And I don't want to be there anymore

My love is not gone
But it's not for you
You only mistreat it
So I'll run away

I'll go where you go
When you feel like
Pushing me down
I'll go out of distance

You can't hurt me anymore
You can't see my tears
You won't hear my words
Everything perfect

Everything is great
Everything is good

Sweet illusion
Sweet delusion

We'll meet in hopelessness
Too tired to hurt anymore